CINEMA

Consciously or Unconsciously films hold a special place in my life. I don't remember why and when I have started developing interest in this and I am not interested to retrospect so much on something which I eagerly wanted to achieve. As someone said, human beings picks up those things from childhood which are more near to their sensibilities (can be anything) and develop that believing that as if they own them without giving prior notice to their brain consciously. I think my interest towards cinema is natural to me since I never consciously developed interest but now this is something where I want to see myself my vision on the big magic screen..

My early memories goes to 6th Standard when I portrayed Hindu Priest character in my school anniversary function. Look at the photo of mine receiving an award for my performance; the person who is giving award is my Dad who was invited as one of the guest. I still remember the day when I had got on the stage and saw some hundreds of people waiting to see the show. I said myself WOW and believe me it's a fantastic scary feeling. I some how pulled it off quite nicely without noticing who is watching me and when I completed many people told me I performed well. I wish somebody could have had the recorded my performance, unfortunately no one did and I don't have a chance to see it again for myself to see exactly what I did so good that made the audience appreciate me so much.This is the last performance that I gave on stage...

As a wannable film maker, am still understanding the nuances of the what it takes to reach there which I know is the toughest path. All the works I had done (the two videos)and scripts that I am working on are the baby steps to reach my goal..

Will soon write a piece on the two videos that I had created what I thought of achieving and how it turned out...

WHY ME HERE?

This is the first question that came to my mind when I decided to create my own space in the web world. The main reason for me being here is to provide a platform to the infinite number of thoughts that flow in my demented mind every day…

You must be seeing a fish gadget of different color fishes in it on the right hand side frame on the screen. Try clicking on the gadget; you will see a series of black spots appear on the gadget. All the fish competes to come near to the black spot (wherever they are on the gadget).

I see a very near similarity to the fishes here and we as “Human Beings”. If you consider the black spot as the food or the dream or whatever it is one desires to achieve or has to survive, then there will be thousands of others who wants to do the same thing and hence they compete along with you and there are more ones who competes just for the heck of it and tries to pull you down or help you NOT to win. Well, the point that I am trying to make is neither the fishes nor the human beings. I believe that we all behave like these fishes, this is right and wrong in their own way and this is HUMAN RACE.

In this process of so called “living the life”, how many of us can really and truly be ourselves and live the life that ‘we want to’? How many of us can at least question and re-question this way of living? This is the primary objective of having my own space where I can truly be myself without being succumbed to anyone or anything (sometimes not even ME).

You will see me writing a lot about my take on life, people & circumstances which influenced me, my perception of things in this world, and most importantly on cinema. I hope all you who are reading this will enjoy my space as I love being unconventional and I always believe that all radicals are born from questioning the conventions and being unconventional.

P.S - It’s a different story that most of the times you get fucked up whenever you try to be unconventional. But, when you do get it right, you will really enjoy it.