CONSCIENCE

My second attempt as a film maker.

Not sure if I can call myself as a "film maker" to be honest. However, I also believe anyone who makes film of his own idea, irrespective of its size monetarily, technically, whose there in it etc., can call themselves as film maker just for the fact that they have made it...

Everyone of us have our own sense of right and wrong... and what happens when your inner self conflicts with real world and can't able to deal with it. CONSCIENCE is the mind state of an individual who is in the midst of this conflict. Lot of questions always ponder over his mind where one part of it tells him to do something and the other always questions why? what should he do ? either to live like others and participate in this impotent human race and live like a dead living being or to fight for a life in this world that he wanted to see... He's aware of the fact that he needs to face a plenty of difficulties to live a life that he wanted to and he's ready to face it ...but he can't do it for many reasons. What would you do?

CONSCIENCE is the amalgamation of all these random thoughts which is the the genesis of this script.

If we train our conscience, it kisses us while it hurts us - Friedrich Nietzsche

Man's life is always been a conflict between 'want to' and 'have to' . I'm sure most of us must have been in this mind state at some point or the other in our lives. However, the degree of conflicts might vary....and we moved on in our lives after some time. But, it is the one who goes one step ahead, acts as a destroyer breaks all the so called values into pieces and create new road for himself is called as a creator.

Am posting a picture of a mind set created for the film. I tried to demonstrate through this picture how you will be in your mind. All the sides which you see are the different statements/thoughts in your mind.





Also, find the trailer and the script of the movie




THE SCRIPT

Voice over –

It’s ME
AND
Am just another fucker in this fucking world.

[TITLE – CONSCIENCE]

Since childhood I was taught something and bought up to live one way to be in this world. As I grew up, I slowly realised that one way did not function and the world is something else. Suddenly, I feel like cheated. Cheated by this world. Most importantly, by myself.

All the hammerings about the so-called truth, honesty, ethics has taken a beating by my conscience when I started dealing with the real world.

The world is beautiful, but it always has a disease called man.

After all, what is this world? It consists of disease beings like me & You who run for something all the time for many reasons !

But, why does everyone run?
Why should I care why everyone run, may be because I am also one among this everyone,
But, why do I run? Just because everyone run !
May be yes. But, does everyone run just because the others are running OR they run because they want to?
Does everyone think like me?
Why should I even care about what others think?
OH GOD, Why should I think like this?

Why can’t I just get on in my life and live the life that I want to live?
Wait, wait, wait, wait, ………..
Can I do that? Can I live a life that I want to? Well, to live a life that I want to, I guess I need to win this impotent human race first to do anything?
But, Why should I least bother about winning it when I think it is impotent?

What if I don’t run?
Obviously, I might look like a LOSER in the world’s eyes. They laugh at me and think that I am an asshole who doesn’t know how to live in this world.
But, there’s always a satisfaction to my inner self, which says “ I did what I want to do !”

BUT,

Is this really a WIN?
Am I not foolish?
Am I intelligent?
Am I unique to the rest? Am I a genius?
OR
Am I incapable of dealing with the reality?

Many thoughts always ponder over my mind where one part of it tells me to do it while the other always questions why? AND I don’t have answers for them. Don’t think so if someone can help me to come out of this vicious circle.
[PAUSE]
There’s this one question for which I cannot escape without finding an answer.
WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?
I guess I don’t have much of choices available.

Either I need to kill myself
OR
I HAVE to live.

The decision to kill myself was not taken in a hurry. It is a very thoughtful and a vary painful decision.. But, I decided to live after a serious thought...

I decided to enjoy the life struggle with no guarantee of winning it. But, I have to do this to get what I want to?

Whatever happens from now on, One thing is for sure,
I’m NOT going to LIVE my life as just another fucker in this fucking world.


...Pavan